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A Pure Connection With Snow White

Not long ago I wrote an article about how internet dating messes you up. Well, the weirdest thing happened to me … Like any other night, I finished my work then not long after the phone buzzed with a new match on Tinder then I heard another buzz. I thought I had two matches as I normally start the conversation. There was a message from this Tinder newbie Snow White. The new match was asking how my night was in old English like what was used by Shakespeare …

This was different I said to myself with a smirk on my face. I checked her profile. The person looked OK. She is not really someone I would be attracted to but hey let’s have a little fun before bed. I’m a sucker for a good conversation. Here we go again I told myself. I am a fun-seeking missile. I picked up the phone and took it to bed. You don’t have to meet everybody you chat to. I didn’t think much of it as if I had met her in real life we would have never had a connection. We started talking. Before I knew it I was out of bed listening to music on the couch and on the phone to her. Snow White thought I was crazy calling her at 3 am. I am crazy but the good kind of crazy. Still stupid of me since I was stalked the week before by a Tinder girl. I just can’t help it. I love adventure and new experiences …

I discovered a part of me or a side of me that I didn’t know existed. We both had a meaningful deep stimulating and fun chewing gum for the brain conversation. We talked about the small stuff and the big stuff at the same time. We used the same language, the same words. It was like we have known each other for years and years and at the same time, we don’t know each other. I know her and I don’t know her at the same time. Before I knew it, it was morning and it felt like 5 mins. We spent all night talking. The last time this happened to me I was a teenager …

My inner child was talking to her inner child. This is the only way I can explain it …

There were no limitations, expectations or conditioning. Just two souls (I spelt it correctly this time as I keep spelling it like sole haha. We are not talking about shoes here) came together which is the purest form of communication. As it is the true self, not the persona that is communicating here. The self that has not been tainted by rules of society or the ego. It is like two little kids playing on the beach then they meet and start playing together then one of the mothers comes to take one of the kids away but he/she does not want to leave and just wants to play.

We both formed this strong connection. We didn’t want to go but life goes on. You have to go and meet your daily commitments …

I wanted to meet for a drink and have some face to face conversation. It didn’t make any sense to me how you can form a strong connection with someone like this without seeing them. It felt like a dream. It was so surreal. The fact that I have not seen her was screwing with my head big time. I can’t comprehend that you can have a connection like this based on nothing. It is not real. I just can’t get what is happening. We both shared the same feelings. At times I would push her away as I just didn’t get it …

It was like the movie Sweet November (Watch it if you have not watched it. It’s about a workaholic that meets a free soul.) It was a Sweet Night In May. I am not sure if I am the broken one or if she is or if it is both of us? We are all fucked up in one way or another. I had to get my thoughts down on paper well on screen in this case so I can make some sense of what happened …

She was not ready to meet even though there are no expectations. I just want to see the person that I talked to. It is just a drink and a chat then we can walk our separate ways or see what happens next. I respect people’s choices …

There is so much more that I would have liked to share in this mental connection of the souls.

She needs to do what she needs to do for herself. I wish her happiness and always the best. I’m responsible for what happens inside me. No one can be responsible for what happens inside another person. I can’t be responsible for what happens inside her or anyone else. You can only be responsible for what is between your head. People say you make me feel this or that or you make me this or that. It is not true. You feel this or that when someone does this or that. It is harsh but true. It is your choice so you have to be responsible for those feelings. I will be just fine. No hang on! That is a bad word … haha  (FINE = Freaked out, Insecure, Neurotic and Emotional) I will be good … when something good goes out of your life it is making room for something better to come. 5 years, 5 months, 5 weeks, 5 days, 5 hours or 5 mins. Nothing lasts forever so it doesn’t matter. It was a fantastic experience, either way, no matter how long it lasted. I would like to thank her for the laughs and wonderful memories …

When you want to get involved with someone new in any capacity, they must be into you the same way you’re into them in order for you to proceed otherwise you need to move on.

If someone is not into you the same way that you are into them then move on and don’t waste your time. Find someone that feels the same way about you as you feel about them.

If they are not into you then what’s the point??? You will just waste your time. You are better off moving on and finding someone that will respond the same way you do. Just look into the bathroom mirror raise your right hand and slap yourself on the cheek then go out date 10 women or men, do some intense workouts, embrace your single life and focus on what’s important then you will be back to normal in no time …

Here we go the phone is buzzing again. I just woke up from the most beautiful dream. Time for the next adventure. Will I meet the one or the one hundred? …

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2 Comments
  • HassMan
    Posted at 19:10h, 09 January

    Nice! I liked that and yes duck pics … ha ha 😜

  • Ruby Tuesday
    Posted at 21:23h, 08 January

    Well, I am interested in the question of whether or not internet interaction is “real”. I have never internet dated or used mobile dating apps, but not long after I left my marriage I did for a short time open chat on skype. I quickly learned that you should not open your camera else, mens dicks start appearing on your screen….and demands are made of you, so I turned the camera off and would only message chat. I met a young man in Istanbul, and we just seemed to understand one another and like you, we chatted on into the early hours of the morning. This continued on and off over around five years and now, 13 years after we first messaged, he is still a Fb friend, he is married now but we will always be connected in this really weird way. Although it had romantic elements, it was not so much romantic as soulful. Hmmmm. Soulful, now exactly what does that mean? Something from each of us chose to share digital representation of the words which flowed in our minds, and we made an energetic connection, which was deeply felt by us both. Once or twice, we turned on cameras and it was very strange and we just went back to our chats.We did fantasise about meeting one day, I don’t think either of us believed it really, but it didn’t matter, because we had met. Was it real? Yes, I think so.

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